Lonlyness is for losers....

Lets see

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 05:21:35 GMT

where do I begin. School is hard. All I do is read. I have two exams tomorrow. My money that I get is taking forever. I probably wont get it for a month. I have been having lots of fun for the past months. I love all my friends. They are all amazing. Craig needs to hurry up and save that money so he can move out here.
Last night was so fun. Everyone at Chris's just dancing and being stupid. Work is fun but I hate closing. I cant close any more or Ill land up shooting someone. My dog is back home. Im excited. But I got to go study cause thats all I do now. Night Night.

MY BIRTHDAY

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 01:17:04 GMT

is today.I went to the strip club last night. It was pretty cool. Right now I am waiting for everyone to get here. Im off to have a fun 18TH BIRTHDAY.

SOOOO

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 05:13:05 GMT

I love all my friends. They are all great. The best ever. I start college on Monday. Kinda scary but there is going to be so much hot ass. HOPEFULLY. I went to see Craig for 8 days and we went to Iowa again. I want Craig to move home now and John too. Im planning on seeing Kate soon. Hopefully she can come out here so I don't have to go out there. If she doesn't ill cry and hijack a plane to her. Ari Katie and I are unsepreatble. Don't think thats a word but whatever. My doggy is going to live with my moms ex in Colorado until my oldest brother moves out because he doesnt like the hair and plus we are never here to give het the attetion she needs. Its good for here but I already miss her. I get my boobies right after my car hopefully. I am going to start looking for my car in about two weeks. I got to go bye bye.

TODAY WAS

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 07:02:07 GMT

crazy. Chris Ari Dj Kiera and I went to the cliffs. Ki was hesitating to jump off this 60 foot cliff. She ran and instead of jumping she stopped right before the edge and then fell face first off the cliff. She hit her face and arm on the ledge 20 feet from the top then fell in the water. SHE IS FINE. But her right side of the face a swollen. Her nose and the bones around her face is broken. Sprained ankle. She is ok not paralyzed not uncouncious. She is going to feel it tomorrow though. I was so scared when I heard it happend. I was on the other side of the lake. She is at home now also. Never again. She could have died. Thats all.

Lets see

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 20:58:44 GMT

Whats going on in Danas life. I start college like August 27th. Im excited but Im going to be stressed out the whole time. I need Craig here. He needs to hurry up the process. Kates bitch ass to. We are giving our Dog away. Im going to cry. Im going to miss her. I love my baby. yeah i cant think anymore i lost it.

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 19:56:57 GMT

Craig and Kate need to move back now.
I miss them so much.
Come back now.
I love my life right now.
I love my friends.
I love my family.
I just wish I had a Boo.
That will come soon.
Cant wait for college.
I love my job at the moment.
I need a vacation with my mom.

CRAIG BRIAN MACRAE

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 07:37:30 GMT

COMES TOMORROW AT 9:50 PM. IM SO EXCITED. I JUST CANT HIDE IT. YYAYAYAYAY. AND GUESS WHO HE IS STAYING WITH WHILE HE IS HERE????????? MEEE!!!!!!!! O YEAH.

O my

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 22:00:05 GMT

Well Katie is in Hawaii. Its been Ari and I for the past three days. Fun all day. Dj has been with us too. I found out some pretty interesting things the other day. I wish I could speak of them. AI took my act for class placement. I did really bad. O well. Just more fucking classes i have to take. I cant wait for Craig to come in 9 days. Im so fucking excited. Tomorrow is fourth of July and I have no idea what we are going to do. Im getting a bmw when I get my money when I turn 18. I cant wait. And I get my boobs soon. YIPPIE.
I went to the Bodies exhibit at the tropicana. It was so cool. Its all real people and peoples body parts. Got to go se transformers.

So

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 08:35:43 GMT

I have seen the most random people of my life the past two weeks. Its like a reunion every day.
I had so much fun tonight just hangin out with Sean Dain Tyler Matt Billy Derek and all them.
Also I love my girls.

SOOOO

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 10:03:01 GMT

besides that fact that I 3will never take xanex because its bad. Tonight was random.
Anyway. Kate was in town for six days now she is gone for three and then coming back for three.Im glad she is here. I missed her. I cant believe I am done with school besides college. Graduation was awsome. I got my mother fukin diploma.YAY. My car is a piece if shit. I need a new one so bad. Thats all for now. night.

O man

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 09:25:15 GMT

Well right now I am in a bad mood. I had a shitty time at work.
I cant wait for Kate to come. I cant wait to graduate. I need a new car.
Im getting sung to by a guy named Dan that is really cool.
Even though I dont really like country.
O and I need Craig here.
LEEMER IS A WHORE.

I love

Sat, 19 May 2007 21:06:46 GMT

when people think you care.

I just

Wed, 09 May 2007 05:26:40 GMT

don't know anymore. Its as if all I do is fuck up shit or make people mad now.

Wed, 02 May 2007 06:03:57 GMT

I dont know what to do. I wish I didnt know some things. Like Skott was fucking Erika(ex girlfriend) while going out with me. That hurts even though I don't feel that way for him. It just sucks to know that the whole entire relationship was a lie. Thats what it feels like to me. I wasted a whole year on him. O well I guess. Nothing I can do now. I learned from my mistakes as everyone needs/should.
Im going to prom with Ari. Its going to be fun. Dinner, dance, show then I dont know. I cant wait.
Its night night time. I would like to say more but I cant type/write it out because it wont come out right because my mind races to fast for it to make sense.

I just want to

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 00:14:05 GMT

say to everyone that if I have ever hurt you or led you on I'm very sorry. I don't like hurting people or knowing I did something wrong to someone. I don't want to live life with little things on my mind about how I hurt someone. I want to live happy all the time. I haven't been happy in a while. I am now. I came to realize I need to just keep my head up and think positive. My mom will soon be done in Colorado and she will be able to get what she needs. She is one of the smartest and strongest people I know. But anyway. I just want everyone to know that if you are my friend I appreciate it I love you. If you have been there for me, thank you.

I don't really know what I'm trying to say. But I'm a little jumbled when I write.

.

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 06:18:43 GMT

Live life for yourself. No one else.

OK DUDE

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 05:26:31 GMT

Six Flags was amazing. The ride there and back sucked balls. My tire blew on the way there. Had to get a new one. On the way back I went to opposite direction than what I was suppossed to. I went south instead of north because I was very tired. Wasted two tanks of gas. Soooo mad. It was very fun though.

I have decided that I am going to give less. I am going to say No more often. Im tired of always being nice. I also have learned that I dont hate anyone. I never will. Why should I spend time thinking about them enough to hate them. Anyone and everyone.

I can not wait to graduate already. I want a better job and to start school that matters the most.

I want Craig home. Kate needs to come back also.

Lets see

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 17:39:40 GMT

Im in St. Louis. I got here Wednesday. Im leaving today. I really don't want to. I'm going to miss Craig even more. He will be out soon though cause Jake is going to fly him out.
Ok So Wednesday we went downtown so Craig could show me the Arch. It was cool. We werent goingt o go to the baseball game cause we were told it was sold out. Then we saw scalpers and we bought tickets. We watched the game until the seventh inning. It was so fucking cold. I couldnt feel my toes.
Thursday we went downtown again so I could take some pictures of all the cool shit I didnt on wednesday. We went to thebatting cages but couldnt finish cause it was too cold and was hurting our hands.
Friday we woke up at 7:30 left about 8 to Iowa. Road trips are fun. Got to iowa about 2. Chris bought us lunch. We just chilled all day at there friend richies house. It weas a huge fucking house. Watched John get his cheeks periced. Got drunk at night. Hooked up with john. Went to bed around 2:30.
Saturday.Woke up ate Burger King. Went around getting shit so Craig and Chris could make a tattoo gun that didnt even work. Watched John and his friends roll. Went to a 3-d movie. Didnt watch all of it because they were all trippin to bad. Got back to the house. Its very funny to watch people rollin by the way. Drove some girl home. Drove the boys to the store went to bed at 6 in the morning. I was the only sober one.
Sunday woke up at 1:30 drove back to St. Louis. I drove Craigs car. Its stick. I messed up a few times but I did ok after. I got the hang of it. I had lots of fun. I wish they all lived in Vegas. It would be so much better. But Im going to go now.

O man

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 06:02:27 GMT

I dont feel right latly. My mom and I dont get along very well. I wish I would help her with her buisness and stuff but I dont know whats wrong with me. I know she needs help but I just go run off or im to tired. I also need to set deadlines and curfews on week days. I dont come in early enough.
Another thing is I dont live with my Dad any more and he doesnt call me. I hate that. Its like Hi Im your daughter. Im right here. Do you see me? He has been that way his hole life. I am going to write him an email about how I feel because I am to chicken to say it to his face or on the phone. But yeah its time for me to go to sleep.
Night.

This weekend

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 07:40:48 GMT

was shitty. Skotts Dad died. Shane called me and told me he had a seizure. I told him he will be fine and then an hour later Shane called again and told me he died. I broke down on the patio at work. I couldnt stop crying for like ten mins. I cant believe he is gone. it happened out of now where. Shane Skott and Sean are so sad. I went to the hospital right after work. I seen him laying there all peaceful. I cried so hard. I barly got enough courage to walk in there and see him. I just wanted his chest to start moving like he was breathing so bad. He was so funny. He made me laugh all the time. He helped me get the keys out of my locked car at 2 in the morning while Skott was passed out next to the toilet. I was going to go to the renisance fair with him too. Im going to miss him so much. I feel bad for the boys.Seando comes into town tomorrow at 6:30
In other news, I have been so tired the last week. I could sleep all day if I wanted to. It horriable. I have my SAT on saturday and Im not even close to being done studying. O well I guess Ill have to cram it. Well its way passed my bed time. Night.

Wahoo

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 06:45:58 GMT

Im going to Colorado this weekend to move it back here. This will be the fourth time moving this shit. GREAT. I cant fucking wait until I am living in my house with my mom. Good news. I got cherry chocolate. Its cute. HAHAH. I am tired and have to take a shower. PEACE.

Icky

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 01:11:50 GMT

Today was supposed to be my day off but I covered for a busser. I hate bussing. Today is Willies birthday.I was just watching underage and engaged. It was about a A boy who just got out of basic training and his girlfriend. It reminded me when Skott came home from his basic training. Good times. Im over it but I miss the fun we had before it got all fucked up. Jeah. Nothing is new really.

Gay

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 07:40:10 GMT

Im not excited for tomorrow. I hope magically I get a secret admirer. Hahaha right. I will have a valentine next year who will actually buy me stuff and be in town at the time.Other than that Im good. I wish I had more time to work on SATs. Im sure Ill do good.

I feel

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 10:04:44 GMT

weird tension between us when we are around each other.I dunno.

Lets see

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 06:20:09 GMT

I get a call at 4:30 its Skott asking for Mario's Nicks friend number. I find out Nick was shot and passed away at 3:07 a.m. I was shocked. I couldn't fall asleep for like 30 minutes. Skott drove him to the hospital. I would be so scared and crying. He is one brave kid. As for Nick he was a good guy. Its sad that he had to go the way he did. Its also scary to think that could have been Skott. But yeah. Really didn't do much this weekend.I really need to focus on my SAT. O my mommy found a house. Its on grand teton and El captain. Its cool. I cant wait to move there. Well I really got to go shower and study. Night.